For My Boys,
People ask me all the time—how is it having kids?
My answer: Motherhood is the most daunting and tiresome job you’ll ever have…but it is also the most important and amazing experience you’ll probably ever have in your lifetime.
I still believe this.
You two make all my minutes and seconds amount to everything. Time is always something we want more of but simply can’t have–so while I have it, I want to make sure I tell both of you boys one important thing that hopefully you feel more than just hear me say.
I love you. More than myself. More than my life.
I am privileged and honored to be your mother. Donovan, while you were first to join our clan of two, you have brought so many smiles to my face. And Trent, well what can I say–you’re four months old now, and I am so thankful you still think I am cool enough to cuddle with.
I always thought I was ready for motherhood–ready for the challenges it presented, but the fact of the matter is I had no flipping idea how you two little bundles in blue could change my world in such an amazing way.
Through my actions, I hope to show you what it means to believe in yourself and how one day, hard work inevitably pays off. Dreams take practice, patience, hope, love, prayers and a lot of faith. Sometimes you’ll run short on all the above, but as long as you have love and drive, you’ll be able to pursue whatever your heart desires.
I endeavor to be the best mom I know how, staying up late, making cupcakes for the birthday bonanza I promised, although I never lie to you–unless it is about Santa or the time, Donovan, you brought home that picture that looked like a green pickle and got upset when me and your Dad couldn’t for the life of us see that it was a Whale…other than that though, I’ll always be open and honest with you boys. I don’t know how to be any other way, and as much as I wish to shield you from every scrapped knee, rude comment, or bully, I know that at some point I’ll have to let you venture into the world on your own, and frankly that concept both hurts my heart but makes me smile as one day I pray you’ll grow into men that are strong and respectful just like your father.
So this Mother’s Day I don’t need diamonds or pearls—I am perfectly content clinging to the hope that you won’t grow up and that you’ll need me always, although I know this isn’t true. So for now I’ll take comfort in knowing that there is nothing wrong with enjoying all the little moments that we’ll share that will make me smile and laugh uncontrollably.
Life is hard when you don’t have someone to hold your hand, but I will always be there for you whenever you need me because that’s what I do. I’m your mom.
Love you always,
Dear Husband—if you’re reading this, you aren’t exempt from getting me a Mother’s Day gift—diamonds are always appreciated. Love you loads! Smooches! 😉